Thursday, August 6, 2009

Dear Dad

Today has been 6 months. In those six months, I have not felt more blindsided. I have felt things I have never before and seen things that remind me of you.

I have never seen anything more beautiful than an eagle which swooped down right in front of the car while mom and I were driving back from Mason City one day last week. It was so big and beautiful in the way that it moved I couldn't believe what I was seeing. The lack of noise in the car made it even more surreal and the fact that I couldn't hear the beating of it's wings made it hard for me to believe what was happening less than 30 feet in front of the car. It brought tears to my eyes because I was instantly reminded of you.

You used to show me things that I've never seen before. I remember the first time I saw a loon in Canada, you were the one to point it out. Although I was young, I remember it being beautiful on the lake at twilight. Once we went on a walk together and you put a penny down on the railroad tracks by our house. After the train went by, you picked it up and right there in front of my eyes, it was completely flattened. I remember being completely amazed that a train could do that to a penny. I remember you telling me that you can only do that when the train is moving because if you put a penny in front of the wheel when it's stopped, it can't go anywhere. That information was simply unbelievable to me.

You developed my love for riding motorcycles. I remember the first time I rode with you, I loved the feeling of nothing surrounding me. Instead of the world passing me by, I was passing the world by, feeling weightless and quite frankly, free. It was glorious. I loved and treasured those bike rides with you. You showed me how to make ice cream from scratch. I still remember how it tasted! Nothing like I had had before! You showed me how to make cut-out cookies. And of course, the frosting to go with it. :)

There are so many things I am so grateful for. I'm so grateful to you for so many things.

I miss you showing me things. I miss you.