The Battle of the Bulge: Update

I am successfully down to 165 pounds, give or take a pound. I can successfully pull on my pre-preggers jean shorts, button them and by the end of the day they are saggy. I can successfully pull on one pair of pre-preggers jeans, but can't button them thanks to the bulge of my hips and belly. But at least the extra bulge in my thighs is going away. I can successfully hurry up and down the stairs without worrying about my fat jiggling so much it will throw me off balance.

So far, 10 weeks in, I can successfully say I am losing weight.

It's been hard, don't get me wrong. This weekend, I splurged. After going my whole life, easily keeping weight off and eating just about anything I wanted (Oreos and Mt. Dew for breakfast, anyone?), I can honestly say this is hard. Genuinely hard. No longer can I drink and eat what I want. It sucks!

But I feel good that I'm losing weight. Only, not good enough. It's not good enough that I'm only down to 165. I need to be down to 160. That was my goal: within 3 months, down to 160. And I have two more weeks. To lose about 2 1/2 pounds. I think I can do it.

However, the way I could do it is probably not the way you should do it. So in an effort to stay healthy for myself, my son, and to keep my milk supply up, I am going to keep eating healthy, smaller portions and try to exercise as much as possible.

Although with it being ONE HUNDRED FOUR DEGREES today, it's difficult to get outside to exercise. So we'll see. Hopefully the weather will turn soon and we can get started.

In other news, you are becoming more and more animated every day! It's so awesome to watch! Your sleep schedule is also getting much better, which I am thankful for. There were a couple weeks where it was touch and go. So we supplemented your breast milk for formula and viola, you are only waking up exactly at 2 a.m. every night. Interesting how that works. And thankful that it does!

You met your Uncle Allan today. He drove through on his way to Cedar Rapids with his former roommate, who is joining the Peace Corps. She is stationed in Cedar Rapids, so he thought it was the perfect time to drive home with her and see his family. It was so much fun to see you with him, even if it was for a short time. I'm excited that you will be able to spend more time with him and I think you'll really grow to love him!

You will also be meeting your other Uncle Chris, Aunt Ma'an and Cousin Jack in a few weeks. I'm so excited for you to meet them too - you'll love them very quickly I'm sure! It's going to be so much fun to have our whole family together again, although we're missing your Grandpa Tom. But I know he'll be there in spirit.

And lastly, mommy got a new job. I loved working for Best Buddies, but an opportunity came up at a nearby school, a smaller school, and here I am, back in the saddle again. I'm super excited to begin the year, but very nervous. It's been a little while. I'm not nervous about the high school portion, but I'm nervous about the Middle School portion. I'm hoping it will go well, and I'm sure if I am prepared, it will.

That's all - I just wanted to update...well...no one, because this blog is mommy's secret. But it's important to me that I document all and everything that is our life with you, even if it's mundane. :)

Love you little man!

2 Months Old!

Holy cow, you turned 2 months old this week. My how time has flown by.

You have gone from this tiny little thing that I couldn't possibly know how to take care of to someone who laughs and coos and smiles at me. Oh, how it melts my heart when you smile at me!

I went from carefully changing diapers to wiping your ass with the speed and agility of a pizza dough thrower. It's lightning quick and before you know it, it's done. I went from just staring at you, wide-eyed and confused to laughing with you, talking with you and loving on you like it's nobody's business.

Overall, in the past 2 months, I have figured out that although I'm exhausted 90% of the time, I love being a mom. I love it when you coo and smile at me when I make funny faces. I think it's hilarious when you pee when your diaper is off and then you smile like it's the most hilarious thing in the world. It pains me when I walk into your room at 2:30 a.m. ready to commit murder (yes, I'm writing that...) and see your beautiful face look up at me and you immediately stop crying. It's heart-melting. All in all, it's not too bad.

I'm anxious to see what the next two months bring! I love you, little man!