I've been thinking more and more of what to do with you when you finally get here and less and less of you as you are in my womb.
Sound stupid? Some things might be, but give your ole mom a chance...
1) I want to teach you to do good things for others and why it's important to do good things for others. I want to teach you to serve the homeless, donate to charities, conduct a service project. Whether that's through Boy Scouts, or just serving at a homeless shelter on Christmas Eve, I want it to be something special. Something that teaches you to be a good person.
2) I want you to be able to express yourself. It's important to me that you have a voice in our family, no matter if it's right or wrong. I want you to be able to form your own opinions and justify them in an intelligent way. I want you to take those opinions and build your own family around them someday.
3) I want you to know that sometimes, your mom will be wrong. And I hate being wrong. And I will try to keep myself in line when I'm being proven wrong. Trust me, you'll see.
4) I want you to have MANNERS and understand how to say "Please," and "Thank You," without being prompted. I don't want you to be a robot that automatically says thank you and you're not sure what you are thankful for. I want you to chew with your mouth closed, address people in a respectful manner and know that hats at the dinner table ARE NOT appropriate, no matter how often your daddy wears his damn stocking hats. :)
5) Most importantly, I want you to be who you are. Whoever you may be. Whatever you want to be. We will support you wholly........ as long as you can justify your decision. :)
I love you!
Mom
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
YOU'RE A BOY!!!!
You're a boy, you're a boy, YOU'RE A BOY!!!
Now, don't get me wrong, I would have been more than happy to have a little girl, but you're a boy.
And oooohhhhhhhh, how I was hoping for a boy!
They say that mothers know for sure what the baby is before the ultrasound, and I could have sworn you were a boy. But the night before our ultrasound last Wednesday (Dec. 21), I forced myself to think of all the neat things you can do with a girl, like dress them up in frills and lace and how pretty they are!!! And the cutest names you can give them...
But you're a boy, and I knew you would be!!!
I could hardly contain myself the night before, going to bed well after midnight and waking up by BOUNCING out of bed t 6:30 a.m. I did my morning routine, then dragged your father out of bed (you'll understand that dad likes to sleep...a lot...) and we set off for the hospital. We figured out where we were going, did the insurance thing, and then I could hardly contain myself in the waiting room of Iowa Radiology in Methodist Plaza.
When the technician finally called our name, I told her that we wanted to find out the gender right away, so that was the first thing we did was look to see if you were a boy or a girl. At one point, I saw your umbilical cord and said, "Oh!!! He's a boy!!!" and then the ultrasound technician said, "Oh, that's the umbilical cord." Finally, we saw what we needed to see to determine gender and tech said, "Oh! Look at the size of those testicles!" I exclaimed something like, "He's a boy!" and started to cry. But the shit-eating grin on your dad's face was absolutely priceless. PRICELESS.
I loved watching his reaction when the ultrasound technician discovered something new about you. You're little heart beating, your little brain, your beautiful face, and of course, those wonderful wonderful 10 fingers and toes. You are so adorable and I can't wait to meet you for real!!!
I love you more than I can even tell you, and cannot WAIT to meet you.
Can't wait.
Now, don't get me wrong, I would have been more than happy to have a little girl, but you're a boy.
And oooohhhhhhhh, how I was hoping for a boy!
They say that mothers know for sure what the baby is before the ultrasound, and I could have sworn you were a boy. But the night before our ultrasound last Wednesday (Dec. 21), I forced myself to think of all the neat things you can do with a girl, like dress them up in frills and lace and how pretty they are!!! And the cutest names you can give them...
But you're a boy, and I knew you would be!!!
I could hardly contain myself the night before, going to bed well after midnight and waking up by BOUNCING out of bed t 6:30 a.m. I did my morning routine, then dragged your father out of bed (you'll understand that dad likes to sleep...a lot...) and we set off for the hospital. We figured out where we were going, did the insurance thing, and then I could hardly contain myself in the waiting room of Iowa Radiology in Methodist Plaza.
When the technician finally called our name, I told her that we wanted to find out the gender right away, so that was the first thing we did was look to see if you were a boy or a girl. At one point, I saw your umbilical cord and said, "Oh!!! He's a boy!!!" and then the ultrasound technician said, "Oh, that's the umbilical cord." Finally, we saw what we needed to see to determine gender and tech said, "Oh! Look at the size of those testicles!" I exclaimed something like, "He's a boy!" and started to cry. But the shit-eating grin on your dad's face was absolutely priceless. PRICELESS.
I loved watching his reaction when the ultrasound technician discovered something new about you. You're little heart beating, your little brain, your beautiful face, and of course, those wonderful wonderful 10 fingers and toes. You are so adorable and I can't wait to meet you for real!!!
I love you more than I can even tell you, and cannot WAIT to meet you.
Can't wait.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
If I close my eyes reaaaallllllll tight...
December 6, 2011...
On December 1, I was driving back to work from picking up some boxes for moving, and holy GOD I had to pee!!! So I was concentrating on basically not peeing my pants, when I felt this fluttering in my belly. I was cruising down the road, no one around me, radio off (because I had had people in it prior to grabbing those boxes...) and there you were, letting me know you're here!!!
There have been so many things that have let me know you're here. For instance, an increase in my visits to the bathroom! And my boobs have definitely gotten bigger! And my belly is growing. But somedays, it just doesn't feel real...
It's crazy what people say about motherly instincts, and I figured that if I didn't acquire those, I could at least just echo what I've seen other people do!!! But at the moment I felt your fluttering, I just knew it was you! It was nothing I've ever felt before, and I will never forget that first feeling!
I've been trying hard to feel that fluttering ever since, and yesterday, when I got in the car for work, there you were, dancing around to the Foo Fighters' "Rope" on the radio. It was a combination of fluttering and weird movement, but I knew you were there! I laughed because your daddy LOVES the Foo Fighters, and I'm sure since you were executing those dance moves like your dad is known to do (ha!) you will love the Foo Fighters too!
So tonight, I got home, and ate my favorite - chips and dip! YUM! You must have liked it too, because after that, there you were! Your grandma once told me it feels like little fingers poking you from the inside. It was incredible!!! There you were, poking me on the right side of my abdomen, saying hello!
I laughed and sat quietly, concentrating on that feeling. This is what I've been doing ALL NIGHT! Watching TV, surfing the internet and concentrating on feeling you bounce around! There was one kick that I definitely felt on the outside of my stomach, which made me sooooo excited to have your dad come home and feel you too. He will be thrilled!
So you better perform when he comes home on Friday!!!!!
I wanted to get this down in the books, so that I could remember this magical feeling forever. I don't think I will ever forget the flood of emotions I had when I first felt you, and thereafter, but I want to remember what I was doing, where I was.
I cannot wait to meet you. I love you already!
On December 1, I was driving back to work from picking up some boxes for moving, and holy GOD I had to pee!!! So I was concentrating on basically not peeing my pants, when I felt this fluttering in my belly. I was cruising down the road, no one around me, radio off (because I had had people in it prior to grabbing those boxes...) and there you were, letting me know you're here!!!
There have been so many things that have let me know you're here. For instance, an increase in my visits to the bathroom! And my boobs have definitely gotten bigger! And my belly is growing. But somedays, it just doesn't feel real...
It's crazy what people say about motherly instincts, and I figured that if I didn't acquire those, I could at least just echo what I've seen other people do!!! But at the moment I felt your fluttering, I just knew it was you! It was nothing I've ever felt before, and I will never forget that first feeling!
I've been trying hard to feel that fluttering ever since, and yesterday, when I got in the car for work, there you were, dancing around to the Foo Fighters' "Rope" on the radio. It was a combination of fluttering and weird movement, but I knew you were there! I laughed because your daddy LOVES the Foo Fighters, and I'm sure since you were executing those dance moves like your dad is known to do (ha!) you will love the Foo Fighters too!
So tonight, I got home, and ate my favorite - chips and dip! YUM! You must have liked it too, because after that, there you were! Your grandma once told me it feels like little fingers poking you from the inside. It was incredible!!! There you were, poking me on the right side of my abdomen, saying hello!
I laughed and sat quietly, concentrating on that feeling. This is what I've been doing ALL NIGHT! Watching TV, surfing the internet and concentrating on feeling you bounce around! There was one kick that I definitely felt on the outside of my stomach, which made me sooooo excited to have your dad come home and feel you too. He will be thrilled!
So you better perform when he comes home on Friday!!!!!
I wanted to get this down in the books, so that I could remember this magical feeling forever. I don't think I will ever forget the flood of emotions I had when I first felt you, and thereafter, but I want to remember what I was doing, where I was.
I cannot wait to meet you. I love you already!
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